When I was growing up, it seemed that everything I said or did was offinsive or embarassing to someone. If we were attending a family dinner or going out somewhere, my mother would always tell me not to say anything or ask embarassing questions. No matter how hard I tried to tow the line and avoid her scrutiny, I always screwed up. After EVERY family event, I'd hear, "Why did you say that?" or "Why did you ask grandma this?" It never failed. Now, if someone said something or asked me something that got me upset, I would be told not to be so sensitive. The same mother that had be censoring every little thing that comes out of my mouth told me to just suck it up whenever anyone offended or embarassed me. If I said something that offended someone that was MY fault. I should've been more careful with me words. If they said or did something that offended me, once again this was MY fault. I took it the wrong way. No matter what, any misunderstanding I had with anyone was MY fault and I needed to change. This is the mess I have been trying to undo this year. I am sick of feeling like everything is my fault. I'm tired of everyone else's little needs and crisis' being more important than mine.
