The Price of Salvation

When will Lent be over?  I wish it would just be Easter already.  This is the first year since I was a little girl that I observed Lent.  I decided to make up for lost time by giving up both drinking and diet coke.  This was a HUGE mistake.!  I gave up weed as my new year's resolution, and perhaps it is too much for my brain to handle being off of weed, booze AND caffine!  I am not myself these days.  Things that usually don't bother me piss me off.  For example, I am in the internet cafe and the owners are talking amongst themselves in Spanish.  I just want to scream at them to SHUT THE HELL UP!!!!!  Of course, this is their business, so this would be totally inappropriate.  How did I ever live without my vices?  I tell myself to suck it up, that there are others who go without much more important things, like food and shelter. Besides, I am a healthier person in the end for my lifestyle changes. 

Meanwhile, I am in a prepetual bad mood.  Everyday at work, I have to bite my tongue to keep from telling someone to fuck themselves.  Sometimes, It is a client, sometimes it is a co-worker or even a member of management.  I fear that one day my anger will get the best of me, and I will tell the wrong person off and lose my job or get beaten up. 

Thank God Easter comes in two weeks.